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Dear Diary:
Why is Yenn so mean? I really don’t understand it. Okay fine, I do, partially, but surely you need to get over the whole “you had sex with my friend AND YOU HAD AMNESIA at the time” thing at some stage? Also, why all the hate on me? Why does Triss not get some of this rage? As soon as you saw her at Kaer Morhen, things were all hunky dory and you acted as though that entire debacle never even happened. Or is all the hate just directed at me?
I don’t know Yenn. I’ve had far too many not PG-13 dreams about you but I can’t get away from this nagging thought that you are not a nice person and enjoy being mean to me. When I first saw you, after months, you basically scorned me and then I went off to Velen to piece together what Ciri was doing there.
And while I was in Velen, Keira was there and well, I can’t be trusted around sorceresses it seems. I knew Keira was manipulating me to do five million favours for her, but have you seen her dress?
When I went to Novigrad, it was Triss who I found there. This time, not with amnesia and still with the thought of you. Triss is not an evil person and when I saw her in Novigrad it was someone who had been humbled and was scared and vulnerable. I enjoyed spending time with Triss. She is, in short, everything that you are not. Triss is kind, understanding, doesn’t pretend that her heart is a cold piece of Skellige rock. And she treats me like a person, not like a puppy who will follow her around for eternity and do her bidding.
Triss and I reconnected in Novigrad and I saw all her wonderful qualities with clear eyes. I know that some people think that Triss is too boring, too nice and a little needy. But I don’t remember where we decided that it was preferable for witchers to love sociopaths instead?
If it were just Triss and I, it would be Triss. But no witcher is a Skellige isle and Ciri is what complicates this all. We’ve been like a family together, a family with an infertile witcher and sorceress and their ward (who has a narcissist dictator for a father). It was as imperfect as things could ever be, but we had our little imperfect family together. And you never wavered in doing everything you could to find Ciri and to protect you. When I brought her back to Kaer Morhen and you saw her, it was the first time I think I saw you look with such pure love at someone.
I don’t think we get a happily ever after Yenn, I don’t think you, Ciri and I get to rebuild Kaer Morhen and have snowball fights in the courtyard. And I don’t know if you will ever be okay with what happened with Triss (and Keira and then Triss again).
I don’t know how things will end up. You are off with Triss trying to rally the sorceresses of the Lodge to help us against Eredin and I am trying to complete my Cat School diagrams. I know that seems frivolous but mastercrafted swords and armour are going to be really useful when it comes to fighting Eredin.
So diary, can you love two women at the same time? And do I really love Yenn or is it just nostalgia and stockholm syndrome? And if I sail off into the sunset with Triss, will Yenn curse me for all eternity. I would rather have the Wild Hunt chasing me down for all eternity than endure the wrath of Yenn. Maybe that’s the answer then.
Okay Yenn, I pick you.
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